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  I didn't have to think for long. I felt his wet hands brushing my hair. He placed one of his hands and caressed my face. I looked up and saw him looking down at me. His wet hair dripping down falling on the bed. I smiled up at him. He smiled back.

  I rose up to see he was wearing a small towel covering his front. It didn't fully reach to cover his back. My eyes traced all of his body. From his mouth down to his chest and what the towel hid.

  I couldn't take my eyes off his body. So muscular and perfect. He was a perfect man beautiful in all the right ways. He smiled his cute dimples on full display. I smiled back.

  "shouldn't you be downstairs with your guests?" He said placing his hand on his wet hair and pulling it back.

  "I will rather be with you," I said smiling at him

  "That's what I like to hear," kneeling on the bed. I got up and did the same so that we were faced to face.

  I kept looking at what he was hiding underneath the towel. He followed my gaze.

  "do you want me to take it off?" he asked smiling.

  I just nodded. I couldn't open my mouth.

  "Are you sure? because once we go the full way we can't go back" I knew what he meant. I would never be a virgin again. Did I want to be one being here with him like this? Hell no!

  "I just want to see it," I told him.

  "You've never seen one before?" He asked smiling

  I shook my head.

  "So, you have virgin eyes too?"

  He said brushing my hair with his hands.

  "Not for long," I said.

  He smiled. "I love the fact that you are all mine in every way" his smile was so beautiful.

  "Then hurry along," I said.

  He smiled and kissed me. A wild passionate ardent kiss. I felt him reach down to remove his towel and he did. It fell on the floor and he started to push me back slowly gently placing me on the bed on my back.

  I looked up at him and he looked down at me. We both stared at each other for a while. Taking in each other's appearances, I guess.

  "Why do you still have your clothes on?" he asked.

  "because you haven't taken it off," I said smiling back at him.

  "well I guess we have to work on that then," he said.

  "No" I pulled him back to me. "stay like this for just a little bit longer," I said.

  I wanted to feel him like this on top of me. His weight pressure didn't bother me much at all. It actually felt good.

  "Are you sure you want to do this now?" He asked kissing my face slowly and passionately. I felt like I was in another world entirely.

  "I'm more than sure," I told him.

  He smile and took my hand. He placed it there on his pointy manhood.

  "Feel me. Feel how you make me feel" he said looking deeply in my eyes.

  He kissed me and I returned the kiss. This was pure heaven. I was floating in the air. There was nowhere else I wanted to be but here with him.

  He shifted when I touched his manhood. He took my hand away gently.

  "Take off your clothes," he told me. "Because if I do, I might not be able to take them all off and I want to see all of you"

  I smiled. I thought about the guest’s downstairs, but they seemed to fade away from my thoughts as soon as he got up and stood there in front of me. His manhood standing tall and lean as well. It was quite big and beautiful. I've never seen one before and I had always dreamed of seeing his. Of touching of feeling it. Inside me.

  I wasn't dumb I knew how sex worked even being a virgin. I read about it. I might have watched a few videos of how it is and what it consisted of. Although I always stopped from watching anything further than the kissing. It was always with him that I would watch them, but I never finished them. I wanted this to be special although never in my wildest imagination I would have ever thought that it would be with him.

  "Take it off slowly," he said touching his manhood. I couldn't stand. I almost fell on the floor. Was this really happening?

  I just had to pinch myself or throw myself off the porch to make sure that this was real.

  I did as he asked. I started by taking off my shoes. Then I unzipped my dress from the back until I was left with just my red panties and red bra. He smiled looking at me up and down.

  He was moving his hand faster this time.

  "Hurry up Eden I don't think I can stop myself much longer," he said.

  I had imagined this my entire life. This moment. But I never thought in a million years that I will be losing my virginity tonight at my nineteen birthdays with the love of my life Ross Lyner. If a couple of weeks ago I felt like the most unlucky woman in the world tonight I felt like the luckiest.

  ROSS POV

  She was going slow. I think she knew it was making me angry. For being so inexperienced with men Eden sure knew how to make a man full of lust and wanting even more. I had imagined this moment for some time. I imagined what she had beneath those clothes she likes to hide in. But never in a million years, it was what I expected.

  When she removed her underwear slowly, I was already about to explode but I held it as much as I could. Then her bra came out slowly and I lost it.

  I rushed to touch her. To hold her. My hands all over her body. Touching, feeling. "I can't hold back anymore" I whispered in her ear.

  "Then don't" she said.

  I grabbed her and put her on the bed slowly. I watched her breathing her chest up and down. Her hair all over her body like a blanket. Her legs. Her naked body was like art. Pure and delicate. I traced small kisses all over her body. She let out a soft cry. She was enjoying this and so was I.

  I kissed all of her. I started with her lips and made my way down all the way down. I stopped in her most delicate part between her legs. She let out a louder cry.

  "Ross...." She whispered. "Ross..." It was like listening to an angel singing her saying my name over and over again.

  "Ross..."

  I stayed down there for a good amount of time. But I couldn't hold my desire any longer. But I had to make sure that she was really ready for me. So, I asked one final time.

  "Are you sure you want this?"

  She grabbed me by the neck and put both hands around my neck to push me closer to her.

  "Ross, if you stop now, I will never ever forgive you. I will run away and this time you will never find me again"

  That was more than I needed to know that she wanted this just as much as I did.

  Without thinking it twice before she changed her mind. I parted her legs slowly and positioned myself to enter her for the first time.

  I entered her slowly. I was big and she was small. I didn't want to hurt her. She shifted a little bit. Assuming it was a bit painful for her, but she very quickly started moaning with pleasure.

  She gradually started following my movements. Slowly and gently. "Are you doing okay?" I asked her.

  "Don't stop please don't stop," she whispered.

  She felt so good and right and tight. She welcomed me with eagerness and that made me feel so good. I could stay inside her forever. Stupid me playing with my manhood before this made me want to finish so fast. Being inside her like this it felt awesome. But I wasn't going to do that to her. Not until she got her pleasure first. She got one already while I was going down on her. I don't think she even noticed that she did. But I wanted to make her feel it with me inside her as well.

  It didn't take long at all. I kissed her lips as she let out a loud cry of release. I felt it. She was done her eyes and cry said it all. She was breathing heavily. So was I.

  "Why did I wait so long to do this with you?" She whispered.

  I kissed her as I came too, I pulled away as fast as I could. I didn't wear any condoms I didn't even think about it. Neither did she. I knew she was clean obviously. So was I. I got checked every month. To make sure I didn't have anything. I grabbed a towel and cleaned myself. Throwing myself back in the bed to lay down next to her. I held her. She was still breathing fast.

  "I love you. I've alw
ays loved you" she told me closing her eyes.

  I traced her dark eyebrows with my finger, and I held her.

  "We should go tend to your guests my love," I told her. She kissed me passionately. I returned her kiss with the same fervor.

  "Tell Rock or one of your guys to send them home. Send them all home. Tonight, I am all yours and yours alone Ross" she said as she kissed me again.

  I wasn't going to argue with that. I grabbed my phone with one hand while holding her with the other and texted Rock.

  "Eden said to send the guests home. And don't anybody bother me tonight or there will be hell to pay." I text him

  It didn't take long for Rock to reply back.

  "On its boss, and don't worry I’ll keep everyone away have fun!" Rock said back.

  I smiled and held Eden tight. She was sleeping on my chest. If she thought that this was a dream, then I thought it was a fantasy. Because I wanted her just as much.

  Chapter 22

  Eden pov

  The entire month consisted of me preparing for the restaurant's opening night. I was beyond myself.

  Ross and I made love every night and going home to him every night and waking up to work at my restaurant was more than I could ask for.

  The walls were painted a bright mellow yellow color. The floors we're Spanish tiles. The kitchen was a true chef's dream. With enough space for two islands and enough counter space to do our cooking. I decided to hire an extra chef to help me out if I needed, I was a bit paranoid about people hating my food that I wanted the extra help just in case.

  We were getting ready for our grand opening. I had hired enough staff to keep the place afloat. It was mostly people Ross knew or friends of his friends. But nothing prepared me for who the head manager would be.

  In walks Olivianna looking sharp and gorgeous.

  What the hell is she doing here? Was my first thought. Ross didn't say much about her. When I asked him about her he just answered vaguely.

  "She's my dad’s assistant, she is Italian, she likes sushi what else do you want me to say, Eden?" He would tell me.

  In she walks with her head held high and her posture intact as if she was a royal.

  "I assume Ross talked to you about my position here?" She said putting one hand on a table and tapping it with her fingers.

  "Umm he did very vaguely but I took it as all a big joke. I was going to ask my sister or brother to manage the place actually"

  "Well, Ross and I have an agreement and I will manage the place." She said stepping into the kitchen.

  "What kind of agreement?" I asked.

  "Oh sweetie, that is something that you have to talk to your husband to be about," she said as she walked away.

  What kind of agreement would Ross have with his dad's assistant? And didn't she have a job already? Why would she be here and not with his dad?

  I had to call him and find out.

  Ring...ring...ring...

  "Hey, baby what's up?" He answered.

  "Hey, can we talk? Can you stop by the restaurant please?"

  "Sure, sure I’ll be there in about thirty minutes," he said.

  "Okay, see you here love you," I said, and he hung up.

  He never said it back to me. It was a bit concerning but I didn't want to have any doubts. In the nights he showed me that he did love me. But then again, he had done the same thing to many other women before I so was that really enough proof? I didn't know.

  I didn't want to have any doubts or insecurities, but it was really hard not to. I am engaged to Ross Lyner after all. Everyone around here knows him. He is like a celebrity of some sort around here. He is filthy rich. He is the leader of something big like the knight lions motorcycle gang. He was somebody. But I will become somebody too.

  My dream was to meet American chef Grant Achatz I learned a lot about him and his style of cooking. I wanted to incorporate some of his dishes here but make them my own. I had so many ideas. But the problem with Olivianna still troubled me. I didn't want her here. Something about her I didn't trust.

  Thinking of her, here she comes.

  "The kitchen could use a little pick me up," she said with a notebook and pen in her hand, writing down stuff.

  "We are just about to open in two days. I think everything looks good, "

  I don't know what Olivianna is talking about we have top-of-the-line features, for our kitchen and enough space. As I was looking at it. I hear the little bell at the door ringing, and I see Ross. I smile seeing him. He is so perfect. He is wearing a white t-shirt with sunshine in the middle and black jeans with a beanie hat. He looks like he was riding his motorcycle or something.

  To me, he was perfect. I felt so lucky.

  I looked in the mirror to make sure I looked presentable. I didn't look bad. I went to talk to him.

  But Olivianna beat me to it. I stepped back and saw her smiling with all her teeth at him. He didn't smile back. They talked for about five minutes and then she started walking towards me.

  "I'm not the one you have to worry about," she told me.

  What did that mean?

  I took a deep breath and walked to him. But I wasn't smiling like most times.

  "Hey babe, " he gave me a kiss. I returned it but not as before.

  "What now?" He asked clearly knowing something was up.

  "Why is she here? She said you told her she could be the head manager, but I don't agree"

  He pulled me outside away from everyone.

  "Eden, Olivianna is not just my dad’s assistant. She is his girlfriend; my mom doesn't know about the affair if she finds out it can destroy her. My mom suffers from a bad heart."

  Oh, my goodness all of this made sense now. No wonder. Here I was being a jerk thinking the worse of him and he was doing this for his mom, but I still didn't understand why she wanted to work here.

  "Oh, wow I get it now but why does she want to work here?"

  "That's what I'm trying to figure out," he said.

  "Leave it to me, I won't allow her to mess with you. If anything let me know and I'll take care of it okay?" He gave me a kiss.

  "I gotta go take care of some business things I’ll see you at home. But I’ll be a bit late tonight" he said.

  Is weird ever since the whole scholarship deal Ross didn't take me anywhere with him anymore. We used to do everything together. But now. We barely saw each other. I guess because back then we were younger and with less important stuff to do. Now we had jobs and more responsibilities.

  He was barely around anymore. I only saw him in the nights. He was always gone doing his things with his men.

  "Stop thinking so much Eden, focus on your stuff" finally my inner voice was speaking clearly to me and it was right.

  I trust Ross with all my heart. I don't want to do anything to sabotage our relationship. He will be my husband soon.

  I went back to my duties in getting things ready for opening night in two days. I guess I have to accept that Olivianna was going to be around a lot. As long as she didn't get in the way of anything, I guess I didn't have a choice but to accept it.

  We finished for the day and Olivianna actually helped a lot. I was surprised.

  "You need a ride back to your place?" She asked.

  "Umm no thanks I got my driver here waiting for me"

  "You mean the driver Ross gave you. To drive you around like a child. How old are you? Is time you had your own car don't you think that way you can go wherever you want on your own like a... adult". She smiled and left.

  I watch her get in her beautiful two door red car and speed off. She was right. Driving myself would give me a new sense of freedom. Guys admired girls that we're independent. Guys like Ross especially I'm sure.

  He was so independent from such a young age. Taking over the family business before he was old enough to drink alcohol. Not that it stopped him from drinking since he was a teenager, but he always did his own things.

  Olivianna was right. I will ask Ross for a car. Nothing expen
sive something reasonably priced. For me.

  I got home. I took a shower and put on my pajamas. Yes, I slept with pajamas although sometimes I didn't sleep with anything on. Ross's strong arms kept me warm on those chilly nights.

  I ate dinner in our room alone and waited for him. I slept in his room now.

  It was 2 am and Ross still wasn't home. Where could he be? He said he was going to be late, but I didn't expect him to be this late.

  I read for a little bit and went to sleep.

  I woke up to soft kisses on my face. It was 4:30 am.

  "Did you just get home?" I asked.

  "Yeah, I had some business things to do I told you I was going to be late." He said. Taking off his shirt.

  "I'm going to jump in the shower. Sorry to wake you go back to sleep love," he said.

  I was a bit upset. "Go back to sleep". No lovemaking tonight? No talking? What was happening?

  He took a long shower. I pretended to be asleep, but I wasn't. He gave me a kiss on the lips and left. He just left. Maybe he went to get a glass of water or something. But when he didn't return, I knew something was wrong. I didn't go after him to find out what was happening. He came back about an hour later.

  He laid down next to me but fell asleep. He didn't say anything. Was he getting tired of me already? Was I too available for him? I had no experience with men really. It was so difficult to think like them. To even attempt it. I was confused.

  I turned the other way but did not manage to fall asleep. Until he turned and put his arms around me. That's when I fell asleep.

  When I woke up it was 8 am. Ross was already up. I heard the shower. He sure took a lot of showers. He barely slept anything last night and neither did I. I had to get ready to go to the restaurant. We open in one more day. I got up and decided to get in the shower with him I took off my clothes, but he was already coming out. I heard the shower stop. I hurried and put my clothes back on.

  "Hey, love, " he said coming out of the bathroom completely soaked and naked. Every time I looked at his naked body it was like looking at a beautiful painting. Breathtaking.